Being the eldest daughter of 4 siblings and the only person who generates income for the whole family. I have learned that life the hard way at the early stage. Hence, the more reason I need to keep this job I have with strip. This is not the kind of job that I can be proud of but if this kind of job brings food to my family's table then I am more than happy to keep it and I learned that the hard way. I have opened my eyes and know how to judge the people who can, and can not here for me. Even though all of this shit has happen to am very thankful for a lot of good memories that I have kept after all these years but, it’s not all that bad. To be honest, I cant count the people i trust with two hands. I’ve changed and grown stronger as a person, as a human being. I keep telling myself that one day i'll find a special man who will love me and apreciate me for who i am and needs me just as much as i need him. What i want most of life is a family who take care of. I’m so tired of all the liars and selfish people out there.

I just look at how people see me. How I've been walked on these years. How no one apreciates me, or anything that I do for this world. Despite of all the things I’ve had to deal with, despite the pain people have caused me. I still stand here, strong as ever. I am no different than anyone else. I'm human. Why do people discriminate? Each day i gone through the same shit trying to find peace.

Everyday I’m learning but slowly have so many questions running through my head. Why does people hate me? why i just cant fit in? what kind of people can i actually count on to be my friends? as for now, I’m taking one step and day at a time. I don’t let little things bother me anymore I am going to be the best person I can be without changing who i really i am or what i believe in. I don’t care what people think about me anymore, it’s worthless, and pointless.

I’m so tired of all the liars and selfish people out there. My heart is just so exhausted right now because i tend to give everything to someone who i think loves me. If i’m really as beautiful and sweet and loving as i've been told, why i cant find someone who genuinely loves me and thinks im worth their time? why i cant find someone who thinks im worth keeping? I feel so worthless right now and all i want is a guy who can give me even half the love i will give him. One who wont talk me every second he can just to turn out to be a fake 1 year down the line and keep telling me he loves me and cares about me when he even really doesn’t. If the guy who will love me for me is reading this. What little trust and faith that i left is yours for the taking. I have so much love to give and try to better myself everyday. Im so sick of being hurt and i need love so badly. I need someone who needs my love and doesn’t make me beg like a dog for his.

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